hat instance when you catch the refrigerator Perry of spiders in your peripherals, chillin’ on your wall and you try and smite it with the dog bone, miss and it dashes under the bed is insomnia-inducing at worst and confidence-shattering, at best. A walking baseball mitt with fangs and you miss it. This is why I suck at whack-a-mole and was never a hitman: I lack the simple motor functions and constitution of a small child. And now he’s plotting like Bonaparte. Danny DaVito in a spider costume, or Ganesh, having gained 2 arms, getting comfy under my bed in prep for the evening, the way a guest does with a BnB pull-out sofa. His dad should’ve pulled out, that’s all I know. Because this spider is evil incarnate and I missed my chance to rid the world of him. Now I know how George Bush Senior feels.
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9:15 PM – I asked Jeves, “Liberace sized spider in bedroom, whereabouts unknown,” and it told me, “find a new domicile or work on hand/eye coordination. Either way: you’re fucked.”
And now the room smells of flying insect repellant, because that’s all I have, aside from broken self-esteem and wishful faith in my sheets as a protective barrier. Literally the worst feeling in the world, next to losing a game 7.
9:28 PM – Started playing Taylor Swift’s “Shake it off”, in an attempt to drive him out but thus far haven’t heard his size 12’s clomping out the sliding glass door. I think he digs pop music. Gonna throw on an episode of The Good Wife to see if that gets him, but not from season 2 or 3, because those were the tits, something from season 4 or the first half of season 1.
9:33 PM – Can’t get the image of his rippling abs out of my head. I never knew what a spider penis looked like before tonight. He was amply endowed, not that I was looking; It’s like an eclipse: when an object is that big and stationary, you can’t not look at it. Sometimes you run across an arachnid so large that you catch yourself telling a friend, “holy shit, did you see that spiders dick?!?!”
9:52 PM – He’s undoubtedly clasping his hands now in readiness, his giant basketball-palming spider hands, waiting for me to fall asleep. But I’ve got some 6 hour energies and insect repellent at my side. Wearing slippers…in June, about to duct tape my hoody to my wrists. Because I’m a grown-ass man.
10:07 PM – Asked my neighbor to borrow his cat, for protection, because the Egyptians believed cats to be very sacred and I know not an Egyptian to have ever been pegged by a behemoth spider. He said he didn’t have a cat. Clearly I still have a contact high from all the bug spray. Will change plans accordingly.
10:17 PM – Remembered that I have another neighbor on the adjacent side and asked her for her cat. She obliged. Introduced the cat to the undercarriage of my bed, in the hopes that its natural predatory instinct would kick in and it would pounce on this fucker like a gazelle but all it did was curl up in the corner and start yacking up bodily fluids from ingesting a great deal of the insect repellant I had spackled quite liberally onto the bedpost.
10:25 PM – The cat does not look good. It looks like Tom Sizemore now, but a Tom Sizemore that really let himself go. An unhappy, unhealthy Tom Sizemore, grief-stricken with the world, eyes dilated, giving off the hundred yard stare as though he just got back from his second tour with the hundred and third regiment. I tell the cat to hang on and just do his fucking job and sniff out the spider. With what seemed like the last breath in its lungs he clamored, “Cats don’t sniff, we use our whiskers,” and that I should take him to a vet, pronto. I said it sounded more like I should take him to manners school or the respect-for-thy-elders factory. His eyes rolled back in disapproval.
10:29 PM – Pretty sure I was mistaken about the reason for the rolling back of the cats eyes. This cat is clearly dead. Its furry diaphragm is moving no more. Paws occasionally twitching uncontrollably in what I can only assume is the gods preparing its soul for the kitty afterlife. Off into the distance, far beyond my reach I see the shadow of what looks like Tom Sizemore, but like a really buff, in shape, self-confident Tom Sizemore. Black Hawk Down Tom Sizemore, which, they could’ve taken out the helicopter and replaced it with this eight-legged penis wrinkle and nobody would’ve been the wiser.
It’s the spider. He’s smoking what looks to be a Cohiba or maybe a Macanudo. The balls on this son of a bitch. Where’d he get that tiny lawn chair? All I see is the glow from his petit robusto and the glimmer in like thirty of his eyes. I again take notice of his member. He motions that I should take a picture. I retort with, “Psh. You…take a…picture. Bro.”
10:49 PM – Put on Toy Story 2 in an attempt to quaff my fear down like a Roy Rogers but all it accomplished was reminding me of my distaste for Tim Allen. It’s his voice, he just seems like a dick. A giant dick on a huge spider, fangs retracting like Wolverine’s claws, sinking into all matters of good taste, rendering them useless and gauche.
11:48 PM – Felt a tickle up my thigh and immediately jumped into the dogs paws but forgot that it was me, pleasuring myself, in an attempt to shift my thoughts from this Volkswagen of an insect to something more pleasing. Except, it had the opposite effect. This spider’s giant cock is now all but burned into my retinas and I can’t stop seeing mental images of it. Even with porn, it pops in there like an unwelcome guest to a dinner party, or a giant goddamn spider that walked into your bedroom because you left the sliding glass door ajar out of laziness, like Hitler waltzing into Poland.
12:12 AM – Lamented over the fact that I didn’t use the sandals that were on my feet to club this bastard instead of my seemingly ill-advised choice of a non-flat-surfaced Nylabone. Still can’t get over that fact. It was like instead of hitting him, I gave him a dope percussion beat as he moonwalked down my wall, between my bed and into the depths of my obsessive compulsiveness. What kind of spider wears a fedora and one bedazzled glove? I’ll tell you: the asshole kind.
12:21 AM – Tried to masterbate again, for sleep purposes, but was thrown off by the sound of what I took as him masterbating. Felt very gay. Had to stop before finishing because I again had mental images of his schlong. He kept going until I heard the first spider orgasm of my life; sounded like a deer mouse sneezing. Maybe he tuckered himself out too much to bite me and turn me into a warewolf or give me spider AIDS? Let us hope so.
12:52 AM – Took 2mg of Klonopin in an attempt to quell my anxiety, which had as much of an effect as Kelly Osborne at a boner contest. I lay here now, well, not so much laying as standing in the middle of the room, listening for him. Every few moments I hear a noise and I hold my breath, the way a Sonar officer pings other subs but I’m not well versed in locating large angry things that I was unsuccessful at killing earlier.
1:12 AM – Remembered that trick when you encounter bears and you’re supposed to play dead and so, since both beasts are of equal size and might I decided to play dead, hoping he’s watching and believes me as an actor. I started off by fake receiving a phone call, the content of which was that my half brother Darrelle was hit and killed by an AllState insurance van. In my overstated grief I mention that it didn’t bode well with my heart condition, because Darrelle and I were ever so close and that I was feeling very ill. I clasped my heart in distress and shook my legs a lot because that’s a symptom that I assume one has with a massive heart attack. After flopping around a bit in my bed I finally succumb to fake death, only after blurting out, “Oh no. A heart attack. I knew it’d be like this. Into your bosom I retreat, St. Peter.” It was a performance worthy of Kevin Bacon or Matt Damon, which unfortunately was ruined when my phone actually rang and I answered it to confirm to my roommate that: no, I hadn’t found the spider and also, no: I didn’t want to sleep in her bed. I see now why they turned down my application for that SAG card.
1:38 AM – I finally lull myself to sleep, ever so briefly. I had just arrived at the land of nod by counting sheep, when mid-count my stable of sheep were slaughtered by a large, angrily venomous spider, who wreaked unbiased havoc like in one of those old Mothra movies. I do believe this cock-knocker to be related to Mothra, if not directly than by proxy. Clearly I’ve reached the state of madness that Dostoevsky and Danielle Steel often speak of. I haven’t any more fucks to give now.
So take my life spider. Feast on my flesh. In time, myself, my friends and my family may forgive you but the Lord never will. So come to me in my sleep, bête noire and we’ll dance the Dance De La Muerte. You can lead.
Here is an artist’s rendering of what he looks like, in case anti-venom must be synthesized. Every time I enter its descriptors into google for an image match it just comes back with pictures of Hillary Clinton. I do this not to save my own life, that is a gift already ruined, but hopefully to prevent this serial killer spider from becoming the Ed Kemper of insects and inflicting his pain on another human being.